I am trying to quiet my mind and centre my emotions since news that the woman who led a vicious physical attack on me (at the start of February: I will write about this when I feel up to it but that is not now, I am afraid) has ALREADY - the police in charge of the investigation said he'd "tried" to contact me   This I know for certain is a complete load of bollocks, an expression I've 'caught' from my UK-born partner! After all, I have email, a telephone they easily can phone me on or at least leave a Voice Mail on!), a mail box, and a front door they can come to (!!!) - gone ahead. She was apparently charged on Wednesday the 23rd of April and when I rang to see how the 'investigation' was going', the Senior Constable (whom I and he took an instant dislike to...one of those things, as I know you'll understand) on Monday the 28th of April, to try to see how things were proceeding in the investigation, I was told that she'd been charged. I was shocked as no one from the police force in our country hicks of a town had bothered to tell me...and then when I asked when this would occur and in what Court the guy said, "Oh, it may have already happened" and then some excuse to get off the telephone!   So I made another, later, telephone call to the same Police Station. After they were assured of my identity I was told that the case had been heard on the local (Magistrates') Court on Wednesday the 23rd of April. I was furious. My chance to not only see the perpetrartor in court was gone but, more importantly, so had, it seemed, my only chance to be there on the day and present what is called a 'Victim Impact Statement' (VIS, for short) which lets the Magistrate know how one's life was BEFORE the attack and now how it has been..... which, in my case is basically described by one word, RUINED!! And if a Magistrate can hear or read a Victim Impact Statement before making his or her sentencing, it makes a much bigger deal of difference than one might expect with regards to how severe the punishment upon the perpatratot/s is, or are.....   So, it seems the 'Senior Constable' Barry Horne has, with him as the only investigating officer - another matter my partner and I wish looked into considering eight (8) people attacked me (there really should hve been more police on the scene that night so as to try to 'catch' some of the straglers trying to run from any police) - totally and deliberately stuffed up my case. He did not inform me that this woman had been charged _when_ she had been, nor what of, and nor did he let me know of the date she'd be in Court, thus preventing me from being there and presenting my Victim Impact Statement.   Today he begins work at 7:55am and my partner will be waking me up a bit earlier so my partner (I am WAY TOO ANGRY) to speak with the bastard but will if I have to.... and we both intend to make an appointment to see, in person, the Head of the Police to the local Station...to ask for a full explanation and make a complaint, several in fact, as to how my case has been dealt with.   But unless this Senior Constable Barry Horne has it within his power to reverse such a bad way of handling events which impact/ed upon me, I will Hex him to the fullest extent and he won't know what has hit him...he wouldn't understand poppets but I do and I reserve these for emergencies but his behaviour has caused me so much anguish since I first heard of it that I am desperate to create one just for him and then bury it, with Oya's permission, in our local graveyard. Yes, I practise Hoodoo but mainl for healing. However, if it comes to Hexing, so far any I have done have been extremelly effecacious....   Anyway, this is not a topic (Hexing) to be spoken of freely but I would ask you why you think or sense this Barry Horne has done this - why he has let the matter go ahead without ever notifying me and had this woman tried before a local Court and therefore denied telling me when and as such denied giving me the opportunity to have a Magistrate or even a Police Prosecutor read my VIS (Victim Impact Statement)... Do you think it is his instintive, assuming it is and I'm not being paranoid, dislike of me? Or what would you say is behind this?   I will take this ALL THE WAY to achieve JUSTICE! First, to the Head of the local Police Station, then, if no satisfaction is to be had, to the Queensland division of Police Headquarters (I am in Australia, just to emind you States' fiolks!), and the final one is the Crime and Misconduct Commission... But I will ALSO go to the media if I have to. They usually love such stories and if I cn gain some financial reward (in lieu of what I was going to ask the Court for pain and suffering), I damned well will.   Anyway, this is my situation now and I am in psychological pain knowing that this guy meant to be the officer 'investigating' my caser' never bothered to let me know that 1) the woman had been charged (she admitted she was guilty - judging from the photos of me after the attack and the accounts from the witnesses, I am not surprised; to say she was innocent would be perjury and ridiculous!), and 2) I am not at all happy, no indeed I am furious, with the conduct of the Senior Constable aupposed to have been "investigating" my case. I knew from the start that he was wrong and we wouldn't get on....little did I know that he would treat me in such a way as to ensure that 3) this "investigating officer" had arranged the trial of this woman, without my knowledge, and by the time I heard of it (which was only by my telephoning the police station - no one here bothered to let me know!) that I found out the news and then I knew that 4) it was too late for me to be there in Court and look this abuser in the eye and let my eyes and expresssion tell her all I wantd her to know.... and that 5) I would have my only chance, had I been able to e there on the 23rd of April, to admit my Victim Impact Statement - which I had worked hard on to 'get right' and, not having a printer at home, had spend much time at my local library typing my long-hand up.... and now, unless a miracle happens, it is useless.   A Prayer from you to the Goddess for me right now would be very much appreciated.   Blessed Be,
In Need of Help,
NightHawk   (P.S. If you need the name of the perpetrator, I will give it to you. You have the name of the so-called "investigating officer", Senior Constable Barry Horne (and right now I wish him a slow, lingering death like cancer for what he has done to me and my case!) ...so any other names you need, I will provide to you)  

Dear Readers,

You are now reading blog written by a Feminist Dianic High Priestess (ordained in the early 90's, around the same time she graduated from Sydney University). What I studied at Sydney University, and why, is really a topic that deserves a blog to itself :-) 

Now, why sould you read and keep track of my partiular blog? Well, firstly, I am an Occultist (being a feminist Dianic Witch and learning Hoodoo doesn't make one anything but eclectic, does it?!! >grin>) and if you have even the slightest interest in the Occult, magick, the esoteric, metaphysical and parapsychological, then this blog will have some interesting and fascinating stuff over the coming few months....

I am also a radical feminist with a passion for psychology and gender studies. I also am intensely interested in what is termed "Goddess Archetypes" which is based on analysing women - and men - according to certain Greek Goddesses and from the varying scores, learning a hell of a lot about the individual concerned. If you want to know more about yourself or someone else then you'll just need to wait some time - I am a writer and I have work to do on my novel atm, thanks - and if you answer the questions correctly, you'll soon know what your main archetype is and what it means as well what your least highest scored Goddess means and much more......but for this I need TIME and your PATIENCE.

Finally, I'm a martial artist and would like to correspond with other martial artuists so if you know any or are one, let them know about me. I am not built like Van Damme but I'm stocky and muscular and damned strong. I can out do any man I've come across in an arm wrestle..although if he ws in q dojo with  me, I'd flatten him - just to prove a point! for a woman I pack a damn mean punch, a lethal kick and/or block..and can use a variety of weapons..which is essential when you live in my area in Australia with hostile, ragingly alcoholic neighbours!

So, there is my first blog. It may no be astrounding but hey, it's the first I've doine here and I hope some results in terms of ppl wantint to be friends etc....

BB,

NightHawk.